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Last night, Zachary Godshall -with whom I’m acquainted through Will and my doppelganger- screened for three of us his new documentary, God’s Architects. It was astonishing and extremely moving; if you care at all about art, obsession, and the expressions of love, devotion, hope, and madness humans undertake, you’ll love it.

The film is an immersion in five subjects: a blissful squatter in the California desert who is building “God is Love” mountain; a muscular Arkansas Mason erecting a protective memorial castle for his deceased daughter; a 92-year old minister in Vicksburg who preached on a converted bus and assembled a pink-and-red sculpture garden to attract converts; a Tennessean in mourning for his brother who created a castle next to the houses he built from spare lumber; and an absent and ghostly south Louisiana man, whose bizarre sculptural park is now unintelligible in its iconography.

I assume it is bland and banal to mention Errol Morris in discussing a documentary, but although Godshall’s film is in no way derivative in technique or concept to an Errol Morris movie, it shares something: a movingly non-judgmental evenness, a compassionate capacity to find humor and profundity in men who might otherwise be viewed as loons.

As a curation of astounding folk art -uninstructed architecture and strange decorations- the film is wonderful. But as an exploration of how people -some mad, some made miserable by tragedy- strike out to build structures of meaning and connect them haphazardly with religion, with art, with folk tales, the film is one of the most moving I’ve seen.

He’s still finishing it, and the next screening will be at LSU on October 28th. I hope that, should you be interested, you can see it some day soon. In the meantime, there is a MySpace page for it.

(Like all great movies, this one resists encapsulation in a trailer).

Faith in Love
Eros was one of the countless gods in our history, and many millions believed in him. I gather that we are all agreed that they were wrong, in a reductive sense: he does not exist. As Dawkins, of whom I’m no particular fan, once said, “We are all atheists about most of the gods humanity has ever believed in. Some of us just go one god further.”
An analogy between faith and love: both require commitment more than reason; lucky are those who have been “correct” every time they’ve determined that they love someone. Luckier are those who’ve never determined -rationally or emotionally- that they don’t love someone, only to later realize that they do.
I’ve made both mistakes.
No degree of rational calculation will assist with this process, particularly given that there is not a “correct” decision to be made; there is not “one right person” for you, and some might argue that there is not “one right god.” My concern isn’t with gods, though, but with belief in love as a function of will, commitment, decision.
Most of the people whose relationships I admire do not question whether they love their partner; the love is assumed a priori; at some point, they fell in love; then, they developed love as a bond; then, they committed to love come what may emotionally.
It is certain that you will not love your partner every hour of every day; you may go through weeks, months, perhaps years when you do not. What sustains you when you cannot rely on your fickle, fragile, damaged heart is the will to behave lovingly, to honor the commitment to love that you’ve willed.
If, when you don’t love someone anymore, you leave them, you hope to find love elsewhere; perhaps you will. But you will face the same problem, again and again, because it is not love that endures: love is frangible, like everything human; into it seep all the corrosions of boredom and restlessness. What endures is the decision to love, which doesn’t govern emotion but behavior.
Behavior you may hope to control; emotion you will not. Following emotion in and out of relationships, as I have, is idiocy; that it is common does not lessen the stupidity of the error.
I say all this, and I believe it, but there remains a problem: a certain number of immersions and extractions from love problematize belief in it as surely as too many historical gods make Eros a credential absurdity. When we hurl ourselves into love, we exaggerate the elasticity of the heart, and rather too late do we wonder if perhaps we ought to have been more careful with our faith.

Faith in Love

Eros was one of the countless gods in our history, and many millions believed in him. I gather that we are all agreed that they were wrong, in a reductive sense: he does not exist. As Dawkins, of whom I’m no particular fan, once said, “We are all atheists about most of the gods humanity has ever believed in. Some of us just go one god further.”

An analogy between faith and love: both require commitment more than reason; lucky are those who have been “correct” every time they’ve determined that they love someone. Luckier are those who’ve never determined -rationally or emotionally- that they don’t love someone, only to later realize that they do.

I’ve made both mistakes.

No degree of rational calculation will assist with this process, particularly given that there is not a “correct” decision to be made; there is not “one right person” for you, and some might argue that there is not “one right god.” My concern isn’t with gods, though, but with belief in love as a function of will, commitment, decision.

Most of the people whose relationships I admire do not question whether they love their partner; the love is assumed a priori; at some point, they fell in love; then, they developed love as a bond; then, they committed to love come what may emotionally.

It is certain that you will not love your partner every hour of every day; you may go through weeks, months, perhaps years when you do not. What sustains you when you cannot rely on your fickle, fragile, damaged heart is the will to behave lovingly, to honor the commitment to love that you’ve willed.

If, when you don’t love someone anymore, you leave them, you hope to find love elsewhere; perhaps you will. But you will face the same problem, again and again, because it is not love that endures: love is frangible, like everything human; into it seep all the corrosions of boredom and restlessness. What endures is the decision to love, which doesn’t govern emotion but behavior.

Behavior you may hope to control; emotion you will not. Following emotion in and out of relationships, as I have, is idiocy; that it is common does not lessen the stupidity of the error.

I say all this, and I believe it, but there remains a problem: a certain number of immersions and extractions from love problematize belief in it as surely as too many historical gods make Eros a credential absurdity. When we hurl ourselves into love, we exaggerate the elasticity of the heart, and rather too late do we wonder if perhaps we ought to have been more careful with our faith.

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