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“The wind outside! We talk about the weather a lot in Ireland but the truth is that this country is mild. It is cold and wet but if we look at, for example, the North Americas we see a continent that deep in its heart wishes to kill people, however much it has been tamed in recent centuries. A continent that quite often rears up biting like a late-adopted collie, drowning or burning you or simply moving your house out of Kansas without prior agreement. But the wind right now, I can hear it through the walls. I have to go out in an hour and wondered about clothing but there’s nothing that will help. And it’s not just wind, it’s gusts. It allows you three hundred yards of calm perambulation before slapping you in the face like a mother told a joke about the clergy.”
Distorte, who’s quite funny and can really write.
“The elasticity of what Homo sapiens will believe in an effort to convince themselves that they’re gaining an understanding of themselves or of the universe is fascinating.”

Topherchris. I agree, and without any condescension implied for that effort, which I consider to be one of the finer aspects of the human mind. The fact that some patently fabricated systems of belief retain resonance for us demonstrates how naturally we seek meaning, despite much despair-inducing evidence that it is not to be found.

Topherchris’ comment reminded me, too, of the various modes of belief available to us, and the various types of knowledge we use to sustain them. Just as many of us both believe and discount superstition (quietly avoiding cracks in the sidewalk as we parade our rationalism), so do many of us have competing types of knowledge.

I find the tension between two types most interesting; these names might not be optimal, but they serve this purpose:

  1. Cognitive knowledge is the sort we acquire in school or from media or peers, which we examine it and incorporate into our minds through cognition, and are critical of and selective about. It is transmissible, replicable, and external.
  2. Experiential knowledge is what we gather through sense perceptions and mental impressions as we live; it is harder to be critical and selective with it as its immediacy seems to overrule interrogation, and it is transmissible only by transforming it -usually with language- into knowledge for others to treat as type (1), meaning they may reject it or accept it or recontextualize it.

It is immediately evident that the second type is irrational and impressionistic, but what is notable is how totally it overpowers the first type in our deliberations. Perhaps as it is likely the older of the forms of knowledge, it has nearly total supremacy in the mind, whatever our evolved protestations to the contrary.

Examples abound: residents of Louisiana casually cite “global warming,” a phenomenon in which they didn’t believe prior to Katrina, as the cause of any erratic weather at all, as what Ph.D.s and Al Gore couldn’t do some hurricanes and some snow have (although no experts claim a correlation). Some victims of crime perpetrated by a given race abandon all understanding of statistics or proportion and become racists. Fiercely logical people who deride religion hear bumps in the night and assert that ghosts exist.

And so on. It is not a question solely of intelligence but also of priority: that which we experience seems incontrovertible, while in a world increasingly defined by unintelligibility, by the outsourcing of comprehension to “experts” and the simultaneous unmasking of experts and debunking of expertise, cognitive knowledge does not.

Propaganda and media tactics which succeed in creating experiential impressions are more effective, for example, than cogent and sober essays. Even though experiential knowledge is largely incoherent, unexamined, emotionally-colored dreck, we trust it more.

(Note: you might think of art as the taking of type (2), the elaboration of it into type (1) in the mind of the artist, and the creation of something which can then provoke type (2) in the audience’s mind for the achievement of some type (1) end [though some would dispute the last element strenuously, arguing for non-didactic art]. You also might not).

From the LIFE / Google image archive comes this photograph from August 24, 1942, with the following caption:
“Huge explosion resulting from Japanese attack upon aircraft carrier USS Enterprise during Battle of the Eastern Solomons; photographer was killed while taking this picture.”

That seemed a bit hard to understand, or at least called for additional context. Subsequent searching yielded little information about the photographer, Robert Frederick Read, but eventually I found on this Wikipedia image page a contradictory account:
“According to the original photo caption in the US Navy’s archives, this explosion killed the photographer, Photographer’s Mate 3rd Class Robert F. Read. This image, however, was actually taken by Photographer’s Mate 2nd Class Marion Riley, who was operating a motion picture camera from the aft end of the ship’s island, above the flight deck and who survived the battle although his photographic equipment was damaged. The film Riley took that day, and of which this still was extracted together with others and published in Life, can be seen at this YouTube link (explosion at 03:05). Robert Read was stationed in the aft starboard 5” gun gallery and was killed by the second bomb to hit Enterprise. The smoke from the bomb explosion that killed Read can be seen in the upper left of this photograph. (Source: [1])”
I could find no photographs taken on this or any other day by Read, who is therefore known to the present world primarily by mistake.

From the LIFE / Google image archive comes this photograph from August 24, 1942, with the following caption:

“Huge explosion resulting from Japanese attack upon aircraft carrier USS Enterprise during Battle of the Eastern Solomons; photographer was killed while taking this picture.

That seemed a bit hard to understand, or at least called for additional context. Subsequent searching yielded little information about the photographer, Robert Frederick Read, but eventually I found on this Wikipedia image page a contradictory account:

“According to the original photo caption in the US Navy’s archives, this explosion killed the photographer, Photographer’s Mate 3rd Class Robert F. Read. This image, however, was actually taken by Photographer’s Mate 2nd Class Marion Riley, who was operating a motion picture camera from the aft end of the ship’s island, above the flight deck and who survived the battle although his photographic equipment was damaged. The film Riley took that day, and of which this still was extracted together with others and published in Life, can be seen at this YouTube link (explosion at 03:05). Robert Read was stationed in the aft starboard 5” gun gallery and was killed by the second bomb to hit Enterprise. The smoke from the bomb explosion that killed Read can be seen in the upper left of this photograph. (Source: [1])”

I could find no photographs taken on this or any other day by Read, who is therefore known to the present world primarily by mistake.

“Art will always want us. It finds us infinitely desirable.”

Clive James, describing the “lust for discovery [that is] a feeling as concentrated and powerful as amorous longing, with the advantage that we never [have] to fear rejection.” James’ point is elsewhere, and I don’t wish to linger on the notion of art as an escape except to note that if it is, it is not necessarily a cowardly one.

Milan Kundera once defended Igor Stravinsky against critics who, romantics and sentimentalists that they were, felt he suffered from a “poverty of heart.” He didn’t emote enough for them, and as music seemed to serve these critics as a mirror in which to observe (and parade) their own feelings he was thus a formalist and a failure.

Kundera mounts a convincing counter-argument before additionally noting that Stravinsky’s critics themselves didn’t “have heart enough to understand the wounded feelings that lay behind his vagabondage through the history of music,” to see that devotion to art and to form and to beauty is a sort of love in itself, one perhaps preferable for a man so displaced in reality as Stravinsky. (Stravinsky lived in exile, and -Kundera claims- found his home in music’s historical development).

If your country is taken over by savage ideologues and your woman runs off with your friend, taking the dog, you can do worse than turning yourself over to art, which is never insincere in its desire to share something -life, experience, perception, form- with you.

Melanyouth posted October, by George Innes, and added:

Innes is one of my favorite artists. This was the first painting of his I ever saw, at the Los Angeles County Museum of Art. I came around a corner and was instantly and completely transfixed. It’s just so beautiful. This image doesn’t do it justice but I’m still blogging it, because it reminds me of the real thing.

Sometimes I get nostalgic for representational painting, although there are still many excellent instances of such work; they’ve just had to get odder, I suppose, to have a raison d’être, and they’re ignored by mainstream art criticism.

Melanyouth posted October, by George Innes, and added:

Innes is one of my favorite artists. This was the first painting of his I ever saw, at the Los Angeles County Museum of Art. I came around a corner and was instantly and completely transfixed. It’s just so beautiful. This image doesn’t do it justice but I’m still blogging it, because it reminds me of the real thing.

Sometimes I get nostalgic for representational painting, although there are still many excellent instances of such work; they’ve just had to get odder, I suppose, to have a raison d’être, and they’re ignored by mainstream art criticism.

The Ragbag

I was writing a short post to direct interested readers to The Ragbag, an excellent, excellent tumblelog which has recently discussed:

  • apophenia, the perception of “patterns or connections in random or meaningless data” (which is a good way of discussing some elements of schizophrenia, paranoia, and manic artistry);
  • the Shaw Phonetic Alphabet, a set of characters created from a commission, possibly willed in jest, by George Bernard Shaw;
  • a fascinating true-or-false proposition: “Evolution is a brute force hack,” an interesting phrasing which connects to a theme explored in the book What is Life?, by Erwin Schrödinger, which I discussed previously and to which I will return.

However, he just posted what is one of the most-apropos Tumblr posts of all time, one which combines sexuality and literature in a way that seems destined to be reblogged into infinity:

Ten Writers Who Masturbated

Even more than his cooler-than-usual musings on typography, this synthesis of the main interests of the Internet literati concludes with the following vignette about James Joyce:

One day, when a fan of his writing said to him, “let me shake the hand that wrote Ulysses,” he replied, “No—it’s done lots of other things, too!”

He’d previously mentioned a letter which Joyce wrote to his wife which his literary executors ought to be ashamed for making public, but which is extraordinary in its lustfulness. I felt prurient just scanning it, and remorseful for having invaded Joyce’s posthumous privacy, but it was interesting.

Anyway: check the Ragbag out.

CEB told me to lighten up, and I admit that the tone had grown not merely gloomy but a bit too pretentious even for me; to help diffuse the mood and for the GPOYW tradition:
Here I am bowling with a duct-taped frozen turkey in a parking lot a few weeks ago (photo by Sydvish).
Update: this is why Photoshop exists.

CEB told me to lighten up, and I admit that the tone had grown not merely gloomy but a bit too pretentious even for me; to help diffuse the mood and for the GPOYW tradition:

Here I am bowling with a duct-taped frozen turkey in a parking lot a few weeks ago (photo by Sydvish).

Update: this is why Photoshop exists.

“It is a common failing of all people with little talent and more learning than understanding that they call more on an artistic illustration than a natural one.”

Georg Cristoph Lichtenberg, quoted by Clive James in an essay on the craft of writing that was at once illuminating and embarrassing for me; much of it describes, with as much wit is in this sentence, the sorts of failings I detect in my prose (and, it follows, my thought).

There is often a correlation, I think, between how automatic prose is and how weak it is. For language to escape the anesthetizing effects of cliche, which weakens meaning by making words into tuned-out ambient noise, it must be novel -or at least not shopworn- in formulation. This requires effort, as does anything that deviates from normative patterns. But we should not escape from cliche by contorting language into unwieldy or inefficient forms, a mistake I make daily. James separates the various types of chaff:

“With the majority of bad writers the question [of meaning] never comes up. As Orwell points out in his indispensable essay “Politics and the English Language,” they write in prepared phrases, not in words, and the most they do with a prepared phrase is vary it to show that they know what it is. Usually, they are not even as conscious as that, and their stuff just writes itself, assembling itself out of standard components like a spreading culture of bacteria, except that most of its components are too faulty to be viable. Our real concern here, however, is not with writing too bad to matter… What troubles us is the writing imbued with enough ambition to outstrip its ability.”

I think that’s a fair description of much of what I’ve written in my life, and it doesn’t hurt to say so: there is something to be said for ambition (which I otherwise lack entirely), and it is after all only in trying that we learn to do. As James notes later, writers “must accept that one of the secrets of creativity is unrelenting self-criticism.” Without that, I suspect one has no hope of writing anything worthwhile except by accident; for this reason, it’s commendable to cringe while editing and flush when rereading one’s writing; indeed, I’m glad I dislike most of it, or it would be quite a lot worse. That said, self-criticism must not be so masochistic that we silence ourselves, unless we’ve determined that we’ve nothing to add, a rare and admirable conclusion I should probably reach more often.

I am often ashamed of myself. I can remember having been so when quite young.
There are different types of shame. The commonest form is also the weakest, and primarily haunts us in youth: the shame of not being what we wish we were. This aspirational embarrassment is silly: where is the shame in not being as handsome, intelligent, or well-liked as we might wish? Such shame is merely imaginative, and has nothing to do with the deeds that define us.
Real shame arises from our awareness that we are not who we say we are, even who we think we are; that we profit from and exploit others in subtle ways we ourselves don’t always recognize; that we seek adoration and coax its development by representing ourselves in calculated ways (even when ‘spontaneous’); and so on. 
Above all, it comes from the fact that there are many versions of our selves: the public, the private, the intimate, and the inside, the last of which none see. That there is dissonance between them, between their moralities and proclamations and behaviors, is the source of shame (and of our desire for privacy).
That we should feel this shame is natural and even good: not only does it check our ordinary tendency towards self-aggrandizing, self-pity, and empathy for ourselves above others, but it provides us something to share with those we love. If you had no inner life, if your outer and inner worlds were utterly the same, to what inner space would you admit those you love?
Shame exists at the thresholds between our selves, thresholds already present in youth, when you are just becoming a person. My public self is ashamed that my private self is hurt when people don’t pay attention to him; my private self is ashamed that my intimate self wants love, needs love, like a pitiful child; my intimate self, however, is most ashamed, ashamed that my inside self is a moral void, an empty dark space where there is nothing but self-regard and a flickering awareness of how I shift who I am to be what others want.
In friendship and love, you allow others to pass over these thresholds; that is what constitutes the bond, and that is what entails the risk. And the closer they get to the core, the more the qualities that define your outer selves (and attract others to you!) fade: the inner you is less funny, less intelligent, less engaging, because those are partly affectations. It is frightening when others come closer to your essence for this reason: What is it? A void? A desire to be loved? Is that all you are?
Is that what a child is?
Nevertheless, I pity those in our chattering, confessional culture who have no such thresholds, for whom nothing remains to be disclosed after the always-disclosing public self has compulsively vomited forth all their secrets for attention and applause. In their desperation, they wear the void on the outside.
Without shame, they lose their selves.

I am often ashamed of myself. I can remember having been so when quite young.

There are different types of shame. The commonest form is also the weakest, and primarily haunts us in youth: the shame of not being what we wish we were. This aspirational embarrassment is silly: where is the shame in not being as handsome, intelligent, or well-liked as we might wish? Such shame is merely imaginative, and has nothing to do with the deeds that define us.

Real shame arises from our awareness that we are not who we say we are, even who we think we are; that we profit from and exploit others in subtle ways we ourselves don’t always recognize; that we seek adoration and coax its development by representing ourselves in calculated ways (even when ‘spontaneous’); and so on. 

Above all, it comes from the fact that there are many versions of our selves: the public, the private, the intimate, and the inside, the last of which none see. That there is dissonance between them, between their moralities and proclamations and behaviors, is the source of shame (and of our desire for privacy).

That we should feel this shame is natural and even good: not only does it check our ordinary tendency towards self-aggrandizing, self-pity, and empathy for ourselves above others, but it provides us something to share with those we love. If you had no inner life, if your outer and inner worlds were utterly the same, to what inner space would you admit those you love?

Shame exists at the thresholds between our selves, thresholds already present in youth, when you are just becoming a person. My public self is ashamed that my private self is hurt when people don’t pay attention to him; my private self is ashamed that my intimate self wants love, needs love, like a pitiful child; my intimate self, however, is most ashamed, ashamed that my inside self is a moral void, an empty dark space where there is nothing but self-regard and a flickering awareness of how I shift who I am to be what others want.

In friendship and love, you allow others to pass over these thresholds; that is what constitutes the bond, and that is what entails the risk. And the closer they get to the core, the more the qualities that define your outer selves (and attract others to you!) fade: the inner you is less funny, less intelligent, less engaging, because those are partly affectations. It is frightening when others come closer to your essence for this reason: What is it? A void? A desire to be loved? Is that all you are?

Is that what a child is?

Nevertheless, I pity those in our chattering, confessional culture who have no such thresholds, for whom nothing remains to be disclosed after the always-disclosing public self has compulsively vomited forth all their secrets for attention and applause. In their desperation, they wear the void on the outside.

Without shame, they lose their selves.

“Wallace was also wary of ideas. He was perpetually on guard against the ways in which abstract thinking (especially thinking about your own thinking) can draw you away from something more genuine and real. To read his acutely self-conscious, dialectically fevered writing was often to witness the agony of cognition: how the twists and turns of thought can both hold out the promise of true understanding and become a danger to it. Wallace was especially concerned that certain theoretical paradigms — the cerebral aestheticism of modernism, the clever trickery of postmodernism — too casually dispense with what he once called “the very old traditional human verities that have to do with spirituality and emotion and community.” He called for a more forthright, engaged treatment of these basic truths. Yet he himself attended to them with his own fractured, often-esoteric methods. It was a defining tension: the very conceptual tools with which he pursued life’s most desperate questions threatened to keep him forever at a distance from the connections he struggled to make.”

James Ryerson, in an essay on David Foster Wallace’s college philosophy thesis (posted by the always-astute Greg Brown). This is a brilliant point.

I like Wallace very much, but I think any honest critical appraisal of his work must admit that this tension was not necessarily one deliberately enacted (and therefore performative, artistic, or creative), but indeed one he couldn’t escape; perhaps none of us can escape it in this era. The question then becomes: was it a strength or a weakness?

I don’t think that in admitting our favorite artists have weaknesses we do them a disservice; indeed, pretending otherwise is to perpetuate a hagiographical fiction that precludes real understanding of their work. That they struggled with foundational weaknesses is what made their art purposive; it is the source of much of it, I think.

At times, I felt that Wallace was very desperately attempting to overcome through co-option the problem of how “abstract thinking” and “theoretical paradigms” negate or subsume “basic truths,” but unsuccessfully. After some of his stories, it seemed clear that this problem cannot be overcome through co-option; discussing the intrusion of ideology, intellectualism, and theory into our art by introducing them into our art to “enact” the problem is like trying to calm ourselves by discussing how nervous we are: sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t.

I don’t know how this feature of our age can be overcome (if I did, I would be orders of magnitude smarter, and a writer); various tactics include the deliberate removal of theory from art leaving viciously irreducible corpses of prose, as in McCarthy, or the winnowing of the novel to only the most elegant shapes and sighs, as in Barnes or Kundera. I’m sure other tactics abound: lyricism, impressionism, minimalism.

But I think Wallace was right to recognize that most of these were retreats from the problem, and he was noble for choosing engagement instead; that such engagement sometimes weakened his fiction does not diminish the value of his efforts.

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Louie - Allen Toussaint.

I didn’t want to upload this track without also uploading “Either,” “Cast Your Fate to the Wind,” and “Number Nine,” but I feel compelled to share something from Allen Toussaint’s “From a Whisper to a Scream,” as it’s one of the happiest and coolest albums I’ve heard.

Toussaint is mostly famous for writing songs popularized by others, including “Working in a Coalmine” (made famous by Lee Dorsey, but also covered by Devo), which is wonderful. But this album is just spectacular.

I’ll probably post more of these, so I hope you think they’re all right.

Disaster, Art, Life

Although few like to admit it, Walker Percy’s observation about disaster is largely true: in our era of contented tranquility, superabundance, and fading value systems, we tend to crave catastrophe as a source of meaning. We may noisily declaim that this economic collapse is terrible, that this or that hurricane or fire or administration is so horrific that we’ve lost our faith in humanity, but in moments of emotional agitation we are more alive than ever, and this vitality of opposition and ire and fear is more valuable to many than peace.

Artists are in particular infatuated with tragedy, and for good reason: without it, their art has nothing to discuss and descends into the mire of self-referentiality that makes so much contemporary creative work duller than pop-culture (and less enduring!). Creative people are thus always inclined to overreact, to declare that some bit of news is the end of society as we know it, the beginning of a new epoch, “a fundamental shift,” etc.

Of course, artists may also choose to celebrate something, but in a time which makes mincemeat out of sincerity and has discarded or discredited most value systems, what might they celebrate except the most general and boring themes? What art praises heroism now? At most, art might laud the “heroism” of circumstance or victimhood.

Before I am accused of insensitivity, let me add as someone whose father lost his house in Katrina: this lust for disaster, for the dislocation of the normal, the outpouring of sorrow and rage, and the creation of meaning, persists just until we are actually afflicted, and not afflicted as in, “Ever since I watched all that coverage of the disaster I’ve not been comfortable on boats and I have nightmares,” but afflicted personally. At that point, we are reacquainted with reality and reminded of the worth of civilization, peace, stability, abundance.

And that’s the point: to be acquainted with reality is what many of us, and artists more than most, seek. In that acquaintanceship we define ourselves, our values, the purposes of our society and our lives. Hence the thrill of the huddled family watching tragedy unfold on the television or the euphoria of the boy sitting in the darkened house, hearing the wind whip the trees and the rain fall into the flooding streets: they are reminded of death, and thus of life, and don’t have to wonder:

What’s the point of living? What should I write about?

I don’t have the wit to contribute to most memes, but after listening to me laugh at the various Xzibit + Matryoshka Doll / Recursive Nesting / “X in your X so you can Y while you Y” posts, Will proposed the above combination, which I really, really liked (the bad Photoshop work is mine).
Enjoy, Antikris et alia!

I don’t have the wit to contribute to most memes, but after listening to me laugh at the various Xzibit + Matryoshka Doll / Recursive Nesting / “X in your X so you can Y while you Y” posts, Will proposed the above combination, which I really, really liked (the bad Photoshop work is mine).

Enjoy, Antikris et alia!

“The only revolution worthwhile was the one-man revolution within the heart. Each one could make this by himself and not need to wait on a majority.”