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“According to Webster’s New International Dictionary, 1993, a person who is a native or resident of Connecticut is a ‘Connecticuter,’ although many prefer the more graceful ‘Connecticutian’ or the slightly shorter ‘Connecticite’; ‘Nutmegger’ is also used.”

A demonym or gentilic is the name by which residents of a place are known: New Orleanian, for example, or Norwegian. It is notable that none of the suggested demonyms for residents of Conneticut were recognized by my spell-checker, nor was that given to residents of New Orleans, and nor indeed were the words demonym and gentilic!

It is possibly a controversial field. The Wikipedia article details skirmishes involving residents of Lesbos, the Scottish (as opposed to the Scotch), and many more. Because American is problematic insofar as it isn’t specific beyond a couple of continents, there is some discussion of our options:

United Statian is awkward in English, but it exists in Spanish (estadounidense), French (étatsunien(ne), although americain(e) is preferred), Portuguese (estado-unidense or estadunidense), Italian (statunitense), and also in Interlingua (statounitese).

As happy as I was to learn the words demonym and gentilic, I am happier to now introduce myself to others as a United Statian, which sounds like a breed of dog.

“Perhaps rationality isn’t enough.”

Robert McNamara, quoted by Errol Morris in his phenomenal NYT obituary on him: “McNamara in Context.” Morris’ profound moral gift is his insistence that we view all humans in context, from those some consider war criminals to holocaust-deniers to murderers; reading the comments on his piece, one can see how rare this gift is.

In the clarity of their own purported rationality, of their own pristine, crystalline worldview -their own systems, all failures of integrity- the harshest judges fail to learn the most important lesson McNamara, and Kennedy and Johnson and all the others, can teach: rationality isn’t enough, systems of analysis aren’t enough, belief isn’t enough to safeguard against the real essence of human existence: error.

How morally culpable is someone who is in error? How do we judge the mistaken? Does the intent to do good mitigate the accomplishment of evil? If it doesn’t, how do we make it less likely that we err? More democracy? More technocracy? More intellectualism? More emphasis on morality? Every answer has attendant historical disasters.

McNamara wanted desperately that we should learn from failed history, and in his memoir noted that because we are not omniscient we should never act violently when allies who share our morality tell us we are wrong to do so: error is too easy, and only a kind of democratic deference to others can restrain our stupidity. I would add, although he wouldn’t, that without omniscience we ought try -harder than we think reasonable- to not make irrevocable decisions involving human life. We should not kill; we should not put to death; we should not make war. We don’t know enough, cannot predict enough, and are wrong too often.

But -and I don’t mean this flippantly- it is easy enough to problematize that assertion, easy enough to see that it too could be wrong: what about the necessary war? And if there is a necessary war, is there a necessary murder, to use Auden’s regretted phrase? All human judgments are subjective assertions that strive towards objectivity; we all aspire to rationality, and sometimes must act on it whether it is sufficient or not.

(See this note, too, from Gospel of Moll: that McNamara attempted to answer these questions honestly did not protect him from grave error; if sincerity won’t, if intelligence won’t, if morality won’t, what will?)

GPOYW: Instantiation Edition with Wilbur Mills and Fanne Foxe. (First | Second)
I am always grateful to those who do more with this name than I do; I hope that, in decisive interactions, the cultural aura that surrounds it has been sufficiently enhanced by Haley Mills, C. Wright Mills, the Quasi-Honorable Semi-Judge Mills Lane, Sam Mills, military hero Gen. Mills, and others that otherwise suspicious interlocutors will give me the benefit of the doubt. A positive association with the original Parent Trap, for instance, could incline a policeman to overlook my poor driving.
I was pleased, then, to read about Wilbur Mills, a powerful Southern congressman, here photographed behind a plate that reads as I am addressed by a friend’s children: “Mr. Mills.”
Mills served in Congress from 1939 to 1977 and for eighteen years (1957-1975) was the chairman of the powerful House Ways and Means Committee, a post he held longer than any other person in U.S. history. Mills was often termed “the most powerful man in Washington” during his tenure… His accomplishments in Congress included playing a large role in the creation of the Medicare program. Mills initially had reservations about the program because he was worried about the eventual cost, but eventually shepherded it through Congress and had a large hand in shaping its program. Mills was also acknowledged as the primary tax expert in the Congress and the leading architect of the Tax Reform Act of 1969. Mills favored a conservative fiscal approach, adequate tax revenue to fund government programs, a balanced budget, and also supported various social programs, especially Social Security Disability, adding farmers to Social Security, unemployment compensation, and national health insurance.
I hope there is something in there to satisfy readers of virtually all political inclinations. I felt proud to have an utterly incidental connection to this obvious hero of fiscal restraint, political compassion, and power-mongering ambition, until I came to this:
Mills was involved in a traffic incident in Washington, DC at 2 a.m. on October 9, 1974. His car was stopped by U.S. Park Police late at night because the driver had not turned on the lights. Mills was intoxicated, and his face was cut from a scuffle with Annabelle Battistella, better known as Fanne Foxe, a stripper from Argentina. When police approached the car, Foxe leapt from the car and jumped into the nearby Tidal Basin in an attempt to escape… On November 30, 1974, Mills, seemingly drunk, was accompanied by Fanne Foxe’s husband onstage at The Pilgrim Theatre in Boston, a burlesque house where Foxe was performing. He held a press conferencefrom Foxe’s dressing room. Soon after this second public incident, Mills stepped down from his chairmanship of the Ways and Means Committee, acknowledged his alcoholism, joined Alcoholics Anonymous, and checked himself into Palm Beach Institute at West Palm Beach.
This article is even better: black eyes, lies, obvious lunacy! I suppose that qualifies as additional context for the question of how much our names govern our lives, how much of an effect an idiosyncratic name can have on our development. I now consider myself, and Wilbur, mere victims of a name that wrought debauchery through us quite without our consent. Pity us!

GPOYW: Instantiation Edition with Wilbur Mills and Fanne Foxe. (First | Second)

I am always grateful to those who do more with this name than I do; I hope that, in decisive interactions, the cultural aura that surrounds it has been sufficiently enhanced by Haley Mills, C. Wright Mills, the Quasi-Honorable Semi-Judge Mills Lane, Sam Mills, military hero Gen. Mills, and others that otherwise suspicious interlocutors will give me the benefit of the doubt. A positive association with the original Parent Trap, for instance, could incline a policeman to overlook my poor driving.

I was pleased, then, to read about Wilbur Mills, a powerful Southern congressman, here photographed behind a plate that reads as I am addressed by a friend’s children: “Mr. Mills.”

Mills served in Congress from 1939 to 1977 and for eighteen years (1957-1975) was the chairman of the powerful House Ways and Means Committee, a post he held longer than any other person in U.S. history. Mills was often termed “the most powerful man in Washington” during his tenure… His accomplishments in Congress included playing a large role in the creation of the Medicare program. Mills initially had reservations about the program because he was worried about the eventual cost, but eventually shepherded it through Congress and had a large hand in shaping its program. Mills was also acknowledged as the primary tax expert in the Congress and the leading architect of the Tax Reform Act of 1969. Mills favored a conservative fiscal approach, adequate tax revenue to fund government programs, a balanced budget, and also supported various social programs, especially Social Security Disability, adding farmers to Social Security, unemployment compensation, and national health insurance.

I hope there is something in there to satisfy readers of virtually all political inclinations. I felt proud to have an utterly incidental connection to this obvious hero of fiscal restraint, political compassion, and power-mongering ambition, until I came to this:

Mills was involved in a traffic incident in Washington, DC at 2 a.m. on October 9, 1974. His car was stopped by U.S. Park Police late at night because the driver had not turned on the lights. Mills was intoxicated, and his face was cut from a scuffle with Annabelle Battistella, better known as Fanne Foxe, a stripper from Argentina. When police approached the car, Foxe leapt from the car and jumped into the nearby Tidal Basin in an attempt to escape… On November 30, 1974, Mills, seemingly drunk, was accompanied by Fanne Foxe’s husband onstage at The Pilgrim Theatre in Boston, a burlesque house where Foxe was performing. He held a press conferencefrom Foxe’s dressing room. Soon after this second public incident, Mills stepped down from his chairmanship of the Ways and Means Committee, acknowledged his alcoholism, joined Alcoholics Anonymous, and checked himself into Palm Beach Institute at West Palm Beach.

This article is even better: black eyes, lies, obvious lunacy! I suppose that qualifies as additional context for the question of how much our names govern our lives, how much of an effect an idiosyncratic name can have on our development. I now consider myself, and Wilbur, mere victims of a name that wrought debauchery through us quite without our consent. Pity us!

“On a wet pavement the white sky recedes
mottled black by the inverted
pillars of the red elms,
in perspective, that lift the tangled
net of their desires hard into
the falling rain.”
Excerpted from William Carlos Williams’The Bitter World of Spring” in Convergence: Compounding Unscientific Postscript - Toward a Unified Field Theory of Master Pattern Metaphors, by Lawrence Weschler, which was sent to me by Little Potato.
Tags: poetry abby art
(From Little Potato: moss, diagrams, letters, colors, quincunx, more).
After a bad day, I came home to a small, meticulously-bundled world on my doorstep; it took me out of the large, carelessly-arranged world in which my day had spilled out earlier, and I liked it so much I didn’t know what to do.
That’s when cigarettes come in handy. I smoked one and read the enclosed essay, letters, and poetic fragments before silently thanking its creator, who is at once meticulous and accident-prone, such that this sublime world had both precise details almost too fragile to believe and an unintentional overwash of Orangina smudging many of its pages. That, of course, made it even better.

(From Little Potato: moss, diagrams, letters, colors, quincunx, more).

After a bad day, I came home to a small, meticulously-bundled world on my doorstep; it took me out of the large, carelessly-arranged world in which my day had spilled out earlier, and I liked it so much I didn’t know what to do.

That’s when cigarettes come in handy. I smoked one and read the enclosed essay, letters, and poetic fragments before silently thanking its creator, who is at once meticulous and accident-prone, such that this sublime world had both precise details almost too fragile to believe and an unintentional overwash of Orangina smudging many of its pages. That, of course, made it even better.

Tags: love abby
“[Bertrand continued to the group]: ‘So I’m naturally anxious to strike while the iron is hot, if you’ll pardon the expression.’ Why shouldn’t they pardon the expression? Dixon thought. Why?”

In Lucky Jim, Kingsley Amis uses precise and subtle strokes to draw the ludicrous pretension in characters like Bertrand, whose automatic deployment of an absolutely empty phrase exemplifies his affectation. I love Dixon’s baffled response: “Why shouldn’t they pardon the expression?” Why indeed.

Over time I’ve become painfully allergic to nonsense in language, and not merely such automatic, stock phrases as “if you’ll pardon the expression” as used above. When they’re not merely purposeless, their principle effect is problematic enough: what is clichéd lulls us into stuporous imperception; in not awakening us, though the freshly smart shock of novel language, to the reality beneath it, it isn’t merely uninteresting: it conceals beneath the banal what ought to be striking.

(This has to do with the evolutionary basis for human cognition, incidentally: something must be new for us to see it, and dead language is therefore actually obscuring. When people say something “is a cliché because it’s true,” they’re right, but the truth of it isn’t the point: what is needed is a way for us to see and feel the truth, and clichés cannot help with that).

But worse than cliché is the senseless phrase: the adjective coupled to the noun that seems to modify it absurdly, the journalistic trope that reduces a very specific disaster with specific victims to just another disaster, the sentence structure that betrays that the author wrote as the thought coursed through him, without pausing to interrogate it for meaning, symmetry, clarity, mere logic. And so many little pairs of words that are never separated! So many objects destined never to be subjects (and vice versa)! So much automatic grammar, automatic diction!

My own writing is no different: gibberish filler, unexamined passages, modifications that make little sense or detract from the point, the lies of transitions and conclusions, lumbering language that is directed by habit and not consideration. I find these pitiful little clumps of thoughtlessness everywhere and I feel like Dixon, perplexed and irritable and scornful: Why? Why?

It always makes me laugh. I have a fantasy that someday, at a cocktail party, I will give voice to Dixon’s question when someone says something like, “Well, to be perfectly honest, I…” Were they otherwise to have been imperfectly honest? Or perfectly dishonest? Or imperfectly dishonest? What is perfectible about honesty?

Etc. etc. etc.

Fourth

It is a summer night, with all that meant in the best times of our earlier and still-unfinished youth. There are people at our house, and some will sleep here: they have changed into the clothes they will wear while they dream. The spirits and beer and cigarettes might be candy: though they seemed once to be accoutrements of adulthood, they now have the mildest effects, as though they are gummy taffies or Pixie-Stix.

After the fireworks we came home. We have aged now back into childhood: we want the simplest things and laugh easily. Our domestic affairs are as settled as they were when they belonged to tall and deep-voiced adults talking in low tones in another room. We want nothing but to laugh, so we play games and feel the breeze in the air: it is like a gift from an Earth momentarily without catastrophe, at least so far as we know. Like children now, we read no news.

In the searing intensity of our early twenties sleep never came, or when it did it did so after some bender or in the early morning. Now we feel again like boys and girls who want to see the late television shows but cannot keep our eyes open: we fight yawning slumber as it moves over our minds, making everything seem dreamy and open and resonant; every sound has an echo, ever light a haloed glow.

It is so hard to stay awake in this beautiful summer night, but we fight to; and the fight feels good because we know that sleep will be a gift like the breeze: cool, soft, carefree.

Fireworks tonight in Baton Rouge with Will, Paul & Heather, and Spencer & Lauren. (More and better on Photophobia).

Fireworks tonight in Baton Rouge with Will, Paul & Heather, and Spencer & Lauren. (More and better on Photophobia).

This is one of my favorite pieces of writing, an almost-unbelievable instance of enabling limits I’ve discussed before: Christian Bök’s Eunoia, which you can see in its entirety here.

“Eunoia” is the shortest word in English containing all five vowels, and means “well mind” or “beautiful thinking”; it is also a medical term for normal mental health, and is, accordingly, infrequently used.

The work of that title is an exercise in extreme constrained writing (univocalics, specifically): Bök uses only one vowel per chapter, and each chapter must contain a specified set of scenes: an orgy, something at sea, a meal, etc.

It must be read to be believed; I think it’s very beautiful and have posted about it on occasion; Jack July, it should be said, is less of a fan of Bök’s. Above: the paragraphs from “I.” I hope you enjoy it.

I regretted not being able to see any JMW Turner while in London, particularly as I tried to imagine the Houses of Lords and Commons burning, as it is in his painting above. To conjure the image was difficult, for two reasons. First, the facade of the buildings strikes me as almost perfectly beautiful and suitably stately, and secondly it has, through reproduction over the years, become as iconic a symbol of immutable governance as any structure outside of Greece. To an American, the depth of European history seems almost eternal in comparison to our own brief efforts.
The effect such scale has on one is interesting, and reminds me of what Distorte’s post on Turner called to mind some time ago: the relationship between scale, perception, and cognition. While in London, I spoke briefly with the groom of the wedding about the problem of cyan and noted that in Homer’s Odyssey and Iliad, one never encounters the color blue; it is as though the Greeks simply didn’t see it, describing the sea as “wine dark” and focusing their descriptions on “rosy-fingered dawn,” for example. Blue, I have read, is one of the last colors we have come to differentiate mentally, while red, black, and yellow were among the first.
The groom, a classicist among other specialties, mentioned too that hues are never the focus of ancient texts; intensity is, so that darkness and lightness are described without reference to actual color. Of course, it is not biological change that has altered our perception but the development of our cognition: an amazing thing to consider.
One often hears that dogs “see in black and white,” which is of course nonsensical: dogs’ eyes do not perform the rather artificial conversion of the visible light spectrum to grayscale; only recent inventions like chemical photography, television, and digital processing do. Instead, their eyes take in the same wavelengths that ours do but their brains do not seem to differentiate between them: just as your mind effortlessly fills in the gap left by true cyan on your monitor, theirs papers over the various hues and focuses on intensity (and other sense perceptions).
The processing of sensory data, itself raw and natural, in the brain is driven less by biology than by something else, but it is hard to say just what: why did humanity become attentive to blue some thousands of years ago? Why were we previously not? It is as though the sky and sea in their infinity were too dull to differentiate: better to focus on the colors of the Earth.
It is worth considering how visual art both reflects and alters the development of our perceptual capacities. Reading how people of the past related to their painting is astonishing: what to us seems flat and mannered and false to them seemed as real as a film; without a doubt, people after us will regard the succession of thirty still images each second, flashed two-dimensionally, as an absurdly unconvincing depiction of reality. What is impossible to imagine is what else, if anything, there is to see, what other gaps remain in our sense cognition, what colors remain perceived but unseen, taken into the eye but unassembled into the synthetic idea we experience as color.

I regretted not being able to see any JMW Turner while in London, particularly as I tried to imagine the Houses of Lords and Commons burning, as it is in his painting above. To conjure the image was difficult, for two reasons. First, the facade of the buildings strikes me as almost perfectly beautiful and suitably stately, and secondly it has, through reproduction over the years, become as iconic a symbol of immutable governance as any structure outside of Greece. To an American, the depth of European history seems almost eternal in comparison to our own brief efforts.

The effect such scale has on one is interesting, and reminds me of what Distorte’s post on Turner called to mind some time ago: the relationship between scale, perception, and cognition. While in London, I spoke briefly with the groom of the wedding about the problem of cyan and noted that in Homer’s Odyssey and Iliad, one never encounters the color blue; it is as though the Greeks simply didn’t see it, describing the sea as “wine dark” and focusing their descriptions on “rosy-fingered dawn,” for example. Blue, I have read, is one of the last colors we have come to differentiate mentally, while red, black, and yellow were among the first.

The groom, a classicist among other specialties, mentioned too that hues are never the focus of ancient texts; intensity is, so that darkness and lightness are described without reference to actual color. Of course, it is not biological change that has altered our perception but the development of our cognition: an amazing thing to consider.

One often hears that dogs “see in black and white,” which is of course nonsensical: dogs’ eyes do not perform the rather artificial conversion of the visible light spectrum to grayscale; only recent inventions like chemical photography, television, and digital processing do. Instead, their eyes take in the same wavelengths that ours do but their brains do not seem to differentiate between them: just as your mind effortlessly fills in the gap left by true cyan on your monitor, theirs papers over the various hues and focuses on intensity (and other sense perceptions).

The processing of sensory data, itself raw and natural, in the brain is driven less by biology than by something else, but it is hard to say just what: why did humanity become attentive to blue some thousands of years ago? Why were we previously not? It is as though the sky and sea in their infinity were too dull to differentiate: better to focus on the colors of the Earth.

It is worth considering how visual art both reflects and alters the development of our perceptual capacities. Reading how people of the past related to their painting is astonishing: what to us seems flat and mannered and false to them seemed as real as a film; without a doubt, people after us will regard the succession of thirty still images each second, flashed two-dimensionally, as an absurdly unconvincing depiction of reality. What is impossible to imagine is what else, if anything, there is to see, what other gaps remain in our sense cognition, what colors remain perceived but unseen, taken into the eye but unassembled into the synthetic idea we experience as color.

At the British Museum, there is a wonderful exhibit of clocks from various periods in history, some older than I thought possible; the mechanical brilliance of their construction attenuated, to a degree, notions of our contemporary technological supremacy.
They also brought to mind one of my favorite metaphors: Karl Popper’s description of “clouds and clocks,” the two representations of determinacy and indeterminacy, which he uses to illustrate how those concepts interrelate in forms other than pure contradiction.
I used to quote Popper often, and probably should get back to his work. Some of his assertions rank among the most important ideas I’ve encountered: simple, subtle, profound, and never in need of obscuring lexical complexity.

At the British Museum, there is a wonderful exhibit of clocks from various periods in history, some older than I thought possible; the mechanical brilliance of their construction attenuated, to a degree, notions of our contemporary technological supremacy.

They also brought to mind one of my favorite metaphors: Karl Popper’s description of “clouds and clocks,” the two representations of determinacy and indeterminacy, which he uses to illustrate how those concepts interrelate in forms other than pure contradiction.

I used to quote Popper often, and probably should get back to his work. Some of his assertions rank among the most important ideas I’ve encountered: simple, subtle, profound, and never in need of obscuring lexical complexity.

Lawnstar enters migratory cocoon

Lawnstar enters migratory cocoon

Taken by iconic London Underground sign

Taken by iconic London Underground sign

Seat's taken

Seat's taken

Inscrutable human art at British Museum

Inscrutable human art at British Museum

Relatives at the British Museum

Relatives at the British Museum

Watching cricket at Lord's

Watching cricket at Lord's

Enjoying some Indian Food

Enjoying some Indian Food

At a tequila bar in Whitechapel

At a tequila bar in Whitechapel

Hanging out with John Brissenden

Hanging out with John Brissenden

For Little Potato, I brought the lawnstar (Asterias sodametri from the Int’l Lawn Refuge) to London. Above are some of its memorable moments. Sadly, in the scrum of the city it was broken and now awaits the complex glue surgery required to restore it to life.

Tags: love
GPOYW. It emerges that it is not, in fact, an international tradition to wear light, summer suits to country weddings in June. Additionally, the men above and the women also present were among the most impressive people I’ve met: astonishingly accomplished academics and entrepreneurs and artists, warm and engaging and thoughtful, easygoing but capable of casually assembling a beautiful wedding, kind, witty, charming, and never dull.
Ordinarily, around manifestly superior people I flush with awareness of my own disastrous flaws, but they were so friendly that they succeeded in temporarily tricking me into feeling comfortable around them.
More photos to come.

GPOYW. It emerges that it is not, in fact, an international tradition to wear light, summer suits to country weddings in June. Additionally, the men above and the women also present were among the most impressive people I’ve met: astonishingly accomplished academics and entrepreneurs and artists, warm and engaging and thoughtful, easygoing but capable of casually assembling a beautiful wedding, kind, witty, charming, and never dull.

Ordinarily, around manifestly superior people I flush with awareness of my own disastrous flaws, but they were so friendly that they succeeded in temporarily tricking me into feeling comfortable around them.

More photos to come.

“Dixon was alive again. Consciousness was upon him before he could get out of the way; not for him the slow, gracious wandering from the halls of sleep, but a summary, forcible ejection. He lay sprawled, too wicked to move, spewed up like a broken spider-crab on the tarry shingle of the morning. The light did him harm, but not as much as looking at things; he resolved, having done it once, never to move his eyeballs again. A dusty thudding in his head made the scene before him beat like a pulse. His mouth had been used as a latrine by some small creature of the night, and then as its mausoleum. During the night, too, he’d somehow been on a cross-country run and then been expertly beaten up by secret police. He felt bad.”
Kinglsey Amis, describing a hangover as well as anyone I’ve read in the utterly hilarious novel Lucky Jim. Like most great comic writing, it’s very hard to find representative excerpts; the whole of it draws you into a world of absurdity in which the punctuated observations of the author are at once side-splitting and deeply true, but require all the context of that world to make full sense.